Works for...

So I have made up my mind, about whom I have to work for?
For me or for other people? Should I have to own my business enterprise or should I join a running company?

First of all, work is one of ikhtiar. And as I know, ikhtiar is thing that I have to do, because it is a must. Quite simple. And it does not relate with the rizqi, that had been determined 50,000 years before the world is creates. And this is quite hard to be accepted sometimes. Because, that two statement conclude that I can do any kind of ikhtiar, and I will still get the rizqi that had determined for me. Literally anything. Practically......fills in the blank......

That is quite challenging for iman. My brother had resigned has jobs as an auditor in banks, and he had a fine life, really fine. Then he decided to resign of that ribawi jobs. And he open laundry home business and car buying & selling. Then his wife is starting to have growing cancer. And his life has start to downgraded, if I see. I won't judging and I just pray for him, and whatever our condition now, it must be the best condition that Allah determined for us. The Ar Rahman and Ar Rahim is deeply knows what we are needed in very accurate timing. That is challenging.

So, now I had joined in a running company (was) as mechanical engineer. That was qualified by my ITB education certificate. I have been working for around 10 years. I applied my knowledge of mechanical engineer about...3 months, for probation only. Since then, only administration, coordination, formal matter, and good communication. Good communication is tend to be having dinner with colleagues, playing tennis, having chit chat of how easy working at another departments, and another wasting-time activities. And I still get monthly payment, and bonus, and THR. And worker union is still have negotiation every year to increase salary -for our not very increasing performance-. While inflation is theoritetically happened because our activities of taking loan from banks, to have not really needed things. By syllogism, worker union is struggle for not really needed things. I wonder myself now.

But the thing is, I will not have my position now without my ITB education certificate. Also means that the company will not be running without my qualification. Or another person qualification. And that mean also there will be no worker union.
So, by joining the running company as qualified by education certificate, I will enable 1500 people to have their rizqi. And if that 1500 people is spend their money for not really needed things, I should not aware of it...sometimes.

Comparing to have my own business...which I do not have now, I imagined that it should starts from very bottom, of having nothing. Includes not having the education certificate. Of course, it will not produce anything. It will be very nothing for me, and my family, because I am their rizqi door. They have their own rizqi, but I am the door. And how long it takes to produce something, at least for my little family? 1 week, 1 month, 1 year,  10 years? How long it takes for me to open the rizqi door as wide as possible? I can not imagine, that I will have no time for 'good communication' as I have now. I will be the boss for me. There will be no one to yell at me of doing terrible mistakes. But there will be leaving customer, wishy washy customer, and other abstract customer. That is challenging.

I am not seeing why I have to leave this jobs now, in terms of having own business. While my wife is also not having the entrepreneur skills and mental. And alhamdulillah we can supports some of our family. I mean by visiting them, not financially supporting.

It is challenging that having own business will be more financially supporting for other family and not family. But do not forget that by working in running company, I also financially supporting another employees, although yet through company's hands...

Imagine if there is parallel world. Me joining the running company, and me having own business enterprise, in a same age.

I being employee:
I have salary 3 times gov standard salary. And I enable hundreds employees have standard salary, another hundreds have 2 times standard, another have 4, 5, 10 times, even more. It can sustains for at least 5 years further. It is warrantied I get some money more if I get fired or the company is bankrupt.

I have my own business:
I have 20 times standard earning, and I have my own employees of 20 people. A paid them on standard gov salary. No one warranty the sustainable.

So, it is challenging I said for now.

I think that no matter what choice I take, as I have it with faith to Allah, do what I have to do, not breaking any law, the result will be same. Some ustadz and ulama has define some rizqi door key. It does not depend on whether we as an employee or we as a boss (but customers is kings).