Senin, 05 Maret 2018

Dunia bagi Seorang Muslim

So, I've seen the words of hadith today, said that, world is like dead body, which is only a dog that chase it.

And I thought instantly, it would never been me.

Was I?
Am I?
Will I?

What is World? Why would i chase it?

There is nothing in this world that Money can't buy. Then let's substitute the World with Money.

What is Money? Why would I chase it?

I need money for living my life. But I won't chase it. Then let's substitute the word chase with need.

Why would I need money? Is there any needs besides living the life?

I need money for living my family. Buying food, clothes, place of life, transport, communication, recreation. That is life balance. I need comfortable place of life, transport, gapless communication, soothing experiences of recreation to have more productive life.

So I am making worldly reason for how I need the money. These reasons is somehow has engraved in my subconscious mind. If I say I am not needing those, there always be someone saying (reminding) that I need that.

I do not need house.
   Really? So where your family have a shelter?
Ok. I will rent one.
   Are you ready to pay to the landlord every month for the entire of your life?
Ok. I will buy the cheapest one.
   And how your children will get the good rest in the small house? What if your family come along?
Ok. I will have the medium one.
   Will you not having a carport?
   Do you think a wifi router seems a good option for cheap internet connection?
   Also a car will save us from complicated public transportation.
   The childs is needing the good school, but its distances is required dedicated vehicle with four wheels.
...and other worldly bloody-logical-considerations of how I tragically need the money to compensate.

Actually there will not be any religious reward for having any worldly accomplishment. Religious reward is (should be) the target in every seconds of our life. It should be in behind of each consideration in my life. I must looking for how I get religious reward in each rupiahs i spent.

Afterlife is something which is infinite. There will be nothing in this world that can buy afterlife. Allah has made it so clear about what is required to get inside His Heaven.

But still, I am making excuse for ignoring the requirements. Meanwhile He said that I will find happiness ONLY if I struggle for the afterlife. That's what is the OEM said in the manual book. How can I still doubt the manual book from OEM?

And really, how can I still chasing the world?

Kamis, 09 Juli 2015

(After)life Gambling

Kadang saya merasa kurang beruntung hidup di masa setelah Rasulullah tidak ada, kecuali hanya ditinggalkan Al Quran dan Hadits nya. Padahal pada saat kiamat nanti umat Rasulullah akan terpecah menjadi 73 golongan, dan hanya satu saja yang masuk surga.

Masalahnya adalah, kita bisa tahu satu golongan itu, setelah kita meninggalkan dunia ini, tempat kita diuji selama rata-rata 70 tahun, dan kita tidak akan pernah bisa minta ujian ulang. Kita harus 'gambling' untuk mencari, meyakini, dan mengikuti satu golongan yang paling kita anggap benar, dan kita anggap sebagai satu golongan yang akan masuk surga.

Mencari.
Sejak lahir kita sudah dalam keadaan Islam, kecuali orangtua kita memutuskan yang lain. Berarti sudah aman satu masalah, yang penting sudah syahadat dulu. Kemudian kita harus mencari 1 diantara 73, yang minimal baru bisa kita lakukan setelah umur balig. Itupun kalau ada niatan untuk mencari. Mencari artinya harus belajar dari berbagai referensi dari seluruh waktu mulai dari zaman Rasulullah sampai sekarang (sejarah), berbagai versi, berbagai belahan dunia, menurut subjektivitasnya masing-masing. Apakah waktu kita cukup? Atau kita sedang sibuk mencari uang untuk mencicil rumah yang sedang kita tinggali?

Meyakini.
Sebagian besar dari kita sudah memutuskan mana yang benar tanpa ada proses pencarian dulu. Mengikuti apa yang orangtua dan lingkungan kita ikuti. Ikuti mana yang banyak, supaya tidak berat. Tapi kelihatannya 1 golongan dari 73 golongan menjalani hidup mereka dengan sangat berat karena melawan arus yang sedemikian besar. Meyakini adalah memperjuangkan. Kita menganggap diri kita benar. ISIS juga menganggap mereka benar. Besar manakah keyakinan kita dengan keyakinan ISIS? Apakah kita melakukan perjuangan segigih ISIS? Hidup mulia atau mati syahid? Menghancurkan negara orang lain, membunuh yang tidak sepaham dengan mereka, menantang negara-negara adidaya, dan lain nya.

Mengikuti.
Mempertahankan keyakinan adalah suatu hal yang jauh lebih sulit untuk dilakukan. Terlebih apabila keyakinan itu didapat tanpa adanya proses pencarian pribadi, dan didapatkan secara instan. Ketika ada referensi baru yang lain, maka bisa saja keyakinannya berpindah. Apabila kita mencari referensi secara menyeluruh, tentunya tidak akan ada referensi lain yang baru kita ketahui. Dan akan lebih mudah untuk mempelajari referensi yang baru muncul, karena bisa dibandingkan dengan referensi yang sudah kita ketahui sebelumnya.

Secara pribadi, saya tidak menyalahkan paham Salafisme, yang mengatakan bahwa kehidupan ideal adalah kehidupan di masa Rasulullah di Madinah. Sehingga kehidupan kita saat ini sedapat mungkin disamakan dengan kehidupan tersebut. Dengan demikian kita terhindar dari berbagai macam bid'ah.

Pun juga dengan paham Wahabisme. Mereka menghancurkan (dan tidak merawat) beberapa situs peninggalan bersejarah, seperti tempat lahir Rasulullah, makam para istrinya, dan situs-situs lainnya. Hal ini dilakukan supaya umat Islam tidak terjebak menyembah situs tersebut. Cukup logis, karena Islam adalah mengenai pola pikir yang kemudian membentuk cara hidup. Hal inilah yang menjelaskan mengapa Islam bisa tumbuh lagi setelah beberapa kali dihancurkan tanpa sisa di masa lalu.

Namun demikian, Islam akan mencapai masa jayanya sekali lagi dengan menguasai dunia, paling tidak sekali sebelum kiamat. Menguasai dunia artinya mengalahkan kekuatan-kekuatan yang ada saat ini. Padahal saat ini bahkan menyamai pun tidak.

Mesin uap (yang kita tahu) ditemukan oleh James Watt. Padahal ratusan tahun sebelumnya, mesin uap sudah digunakan di jaman dinasti Abbasiyah, untuk memanggang kambing supaya merata pada pesta-pesta perayaan. Namun alat pemanggang ini tidak berkembang seperti halnya mesin uap yang ditemukan James Watt. Di Inggris mesin uap ini digunakan untuk mempercepat pengangkutan kayu dari hutan ke pasar. Siapa lambat dia akan kalah dalam persaingan. Dengan demikian mesin uap semakin disempurnakan. Yang pada akhirnya muncul Revolusi Industri. Adanya revolusi ini memerlukan sumber daya energi, yaitu minyak, yang banyak terdapat di bawah tanah yang diduduki kaum muslim. Maka kaum muslim hanya perlu menjual apa yang tidak mereka buat, untuk membeli apa yang mereka inginkan. Mereka hanya memperkaya diri mereka sendiri, tapi tidak akan mengembangkan lingkungan mereka pada khususnya, dan Islam pada umumnya. Bagaimana kita bisa mengalahkan mereka apabila kita masih membeli pada mereka? Memang Raja Salman pernah mengembargo minyak pada Amerika, yang memang menimbulkan efek yang menghancurkan. Dan juga berefek pada Arab sendiri, karena mereka masih membeli dari Amerika.

Jadi, apabila ada mesin waktu, saya akan kembali ke, masa Rasulullah. Saya tinggal mengikuti apa yang Rasulullah perintahkan tanpa perlu 'gambling'. Saya tidak perlu 'gambling' mencari, meyakini, dan mengikuti satu golongan yang melawan arus 73 golongan lainnya, tapi yang paling unggul dan mencapai kejayaannya, mengalahkan semua kekuatan di dunia.

Rabbana, berilah petunjuk bagi kami jalan yang benar... Amiin..


Senin, 17 Juni 2013

Resolutions!

Many things happened in this couple of months. Some milestones are made.

Finally I can move on from bitter year and found someone who can really change me. This time i really have to change. Stagnancy is messing me up. Some resolution is has to be made.

1. I have to be more firm
It is not that bloody easy. To be firm, you have to be fully understand what are you going to decide. Decide firmly about what you do not know, is dangerous. Someone will get killed. So it is wise to be careful deciding something. No rush, examine & analyze, pray, decide -firmly.
2. I have to find another job.
It is not that twice bloody easy. They said i should spread 50, 100 applications. That is blind date! But that is ikhtiar they said. So I think that is the second resolution I am doing it. Current job is very stagnant, I can do blogging or browsing all day long. That is not my fault (nobody want to be blame right?), I am tired with my mind about my salary, it is doubling after marrying a big salary woman; my boss is not developing me except doubling my job. Actually I do not want for asking additional salary for what I am doing, because I will stop working here. Any development will not make me any happy.
Technically speaking :), I really do not understand my job description. It is more like that i have to finish anything about administration. And I believe my boss is do not understand what job shoud be given to me either. So I am doubting abot writing my job description i my CV.
But I will stay if boss keep me with compensation, that is not my request anyway.
3. Sholat dhuha & tahajud & thank God for what I have got is what i have to do right now. No compromise.
4. Listen more to the music & reading Al Quran!

Rabu, 16 Januari 2013

Reality Nowhere but Here

There are no single leave that fall without God's permission. What happens to us now, is exactly what God is want. I've got 4 years building of trust, peace, love, and hope. For...nothing. But really? nothing? What if i say, Allah let me built it, just to give me a lesson how to build it? I will have to build another one, with someone else, someone new. God...really...? Technically speaking (I always want to use this phrase by the way), with experience, i will be able to build it, much better than the previous. Not to mention with whom, but it should be better than the previous one. Simple logic. It is hard though, to watch my building is collapsing, corroding, deteriorating like that. But michael buble said: that's life. I am able, in fact, build the new one with some newbie. It is going to be much easier because i am the experienced.one. She will let me lead to build it. But is it much tiring? I will always to keep her behind me, dragging to work it. Or i will finish it as i could. You will get to know president when you are entering his circle. Then i met Titi, a deputy from a dreamland department. This meet will never happen if I was not enter her circle, if I was not out from my circle, if I was regretting my past. When others is such a friction coefficient titi is such a gasoline to burn my combustion engjne. The paradox, gasoline is need by everyone, so it will have a power to control which one is have the right to use it. Who am I to have it? Am I feasible enogh? Do I provide the most comfort ambient? Do my engjne is compatible with its calorific value to run with? I must.

Senin, 07 Januari 2013

Assertive or decissive? Which word?

Being assertive. Not really an interesting topic, but...it has succeed to keep my mind away from street when im on ride!! I hate being introvert anyway So. Being decisive is not a character. It is not about the skill too. Someone's speed to decide something is depend on: 1. His knowledge about what he's going to decide 2. His guts to do something he doesn't acknowledge of 3. His surrounding that pushes to make a decision 4. His partners that give material to make a decision So i'm very interesting of person who decide something in a speed of light. Whether he is veru capable of it, or he know nothing about it. It is not wise to push a person to decide something. It would be better if we can give him materials to make a decision. And it is not a clever way to keep doubt our mind. Yes or no. Take it or leave it. Be ready for the consequences. You must and must know the consequences. It is crucial. You have to collect data about the consequences would rise, and that is..takes time & skills. Turn the time back won't take it back. Because the universe doesn't work that way.

Selasa, 01 Januari 2013

Being realistic!

..a little bit? It really takes an amount of energy to be an idealist, or chasing our idealism. Idealism is a condition we feel the best for us. Sometimes we don't know where we are and how far we are from our best condition. Ideal for us can be real for other person. Actual condition for us can be different for other person. That sometimes be the problem's root. We can't match it, or we are not strong enough to state our own idealism. We claim other's idealism to be our idealism. If only we know our actual condition, we know our actual power, then we will be able to set our idealism which is real for us. It won't be stressful. So be brave to set our actual idealism. Never comparing with other's. We live our own life. Take over our own life.

Minggu, 02 September 2012

God Damn Me

Well, it happens that i earned my bachelor degree from I-fuckin-TB. And it was my decision to get graduated earlier, due to...no, it was my decision. I should stop blame someone for everything that happening to me. So, i get 2.74 at my I-fuckin-TB certificate. I thought (damn it, someone said it) that I-fuckin-TB stamp will give somekind of multiplier on that value. The fact is, job employer is not that interested for my CV. It still not the only parameter required, they said. But it is the first filter that should be considered. It is the paramater that seen clearly. I've full with people assumption of me (why they aren't stop do that??). I-fuckin-TB graduates should "apply" for better job than i do. Do you think i don't want the job with huge salary? I desperately want it. I just end up mumbling at this blog. Ika's father said that " kamu kan lulusan itb, di internet kan banyak". Like hell you can do it. Many advises from mario teguh that young man like me will gain the success & become 'the man'. His logic is impressive. But this is the life. Are you guarrantee that your logic is the true one? When i have proved your advise, is wrong, you already dead. But it's fine. I don't need to prove it. I don't need to listen to you either. I'm doing it. I get my degree from the most popular university at Indonesia. It's not always the best one, though. Because of this popularity, i have to work harder, to defend any negative stereotype, to back up my 2.74gpa. There are no multiplier (they lied, fuck). I should not dreaming any more. Work harder, harder, harder. And harder.

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